Had you ever feel this way? Is it fair for you to do so? I thought you were way mature than the others, that's why I look at you differently, someone I can talk to, someone that could give me good and mature advices. Then you went and change everything with these things you did. Things that show how immature you are. It seems as though, the Chinese saying: 四肢发达，头脑简单!

It reminded me of the past that I had been through. Bitter bitter past. Wouldn't it be fun if we can remove the past from our memory selectively? Let me keep all the nice and sweet ones while the sad and bitter ones are forgotten. But human tend to remember sad and bitter memories more compared to nice and sweet ones, why?

If life is about living meaningfully, then what happen to those that passed away after living so many meaningless life? Since life is short, we should take opportunity on things and not regret later on why we didn't take the opportunity, right? Isn't life about taking chances? Not only on career but also friendships and relationships, right? But what happen when that chance closes the door on you? Slam you hard on your face. What are you going to do about it? Will you sit there and wait for that door to open up for you or walk up to another door? Many say they will pick the latter option: walk up to another door. But most of us will sit there and wait for that door to open up for us unconsciously. Our mouth say thats we'll move on, find another door that is way better than that. But sadly, our mind, body and soul will involuntarily sit there and hope that that door will open up for us. Why must we let that door, which doesn't appreciate us to take in-charge of the situation? This is our life, we have the right to decide how it goes. This door slam on us, then we'll move on to the another door. Isn't this theory simple enough for us to practice?

I'll be losing my mind if sad things happen again. I can't guarantee I wouldn't cry. But I wouldn't guarantee I'll share it with you when you ask.